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Carolyn <3
03 December 2009 @ 12:24 pm
Because I'm a special cookie, I totally forgot to share these two videos last time I posted. :3 I made both of them, with the first one being true yaoi content and other more of an in-joke put in to physical form. XD

Last Train Home - KiriJa AMV to Lostprophets Last Train Home. Features a ton of fanart and one adorable cosplay picture.

If You Where Gay
- Yes. That song. Working title, "Carolyn had waaaay too much time on her hands". A hand drawn slide-show thingy that came about while joking with World-Without-You on DA. Not meant to be taken seriously at all. XDD

*skips off in to the sunset*
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Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Roots - B'z
 
 
Carolyn <3
23 September 2009 @ 10:16 pm
Posting this emo journal rant of doom here because I have no friends on LiveJournal. XD It's kinda like college! I apologize for gratuitous swearing and general not happiness. Read only if you want to be depressed. (But who's reading this besides me?)






Seriously, people need to stop fucking dying on me. Especially when I find out about it second hand. Every once in a blue moon I get a journal in my DA inbox about a friend of someone I watched who has died recently, sometimes from an illness, some times from a tragedy of a murder. I've cried over these before, and I didn't even know them. I'm a emotional person like that, when someone is crying I cry, when someone laughs I laugh. It just happens. I just never thought I'd have to experience something so like it so soon.


So I'm talking to my favorite Sparky on IM for the first time in god knows how long, and he mentions, 'Did I tell you about Ada?' and I'm all like, 'No. D:' thinking they've broken up or she's having a hard time adjusting to life in a new place.

'She passed away well technically she was murdered.'

Ada. Sweet, happy Ada. Dead because of her fucking ex boyfriend. I never got a chance to meet her in person, I only chatted on IM and had that one three way call. It took a minute to sink in that I'd never get to hear her silly giggle again, I'd never get to talk about anime with her and we'd never get to show her Genericon and she was always brightened my day, and why?! I had to choke back the tears. Todd told me not to cry, that she wouldn't want that, but goddamn it. I was so excited that he had such a nice person for a girl friend, I was so looking forward to having her become one of us 'Sarcasm Donuts', and for all of us being generally geeky together. I didn't even know her, and it kills me that I won't ever have the chance too. And Todd. He was so happy, simply radiating sunshine and love every time he talked about her, and I remember how very low he was last Genericon. I'm not just crying for her- I'm crying for him, for her family, and all of the people she touched and left behind.

Ada, we love you, and we miss you.

Then I find out through DA that just two weeks before my 18th birthday back in August, the bassist of one of my favorite Japaneses bands, Versailles, unexpectedly died. Someone posted a beautiful tribute picture with all of the info in the artists comments. I didn't even know his name before then. It's Jasmine You. And I'm crying again, not even twentyfour hours after I found out about Ada. Why? I don't know. Because it hurts. Because he'll never put on over the top makeup and play amazing guitar rifts again. Because his bandmates are so strong, and they've decided to stick together. Because he wouldn't want anyone too and I'm crying anyway.

Jasmine, I'll always think of you now when I listen to great metal music.

Maybe it's because I'm hiding alone in my dorm room. Friendless. A ton of homework to do. Feeling like I'm constantly in the bottom of my class, being outshined by all of the other amazing artist. Four weeks in and I've only talked to a few girls on a handful of occasions. I've never had a real boyfriend, never even been in love, and fuck I'm so lonely. I told myself, 'I'll be different and not cry the first week of college! I'm totally fine on my own! 8D' and that first long weekend with labor day bunched in to it, all I did was sit around eating popcorn and watching Black Jack on Youtube. It got to the point that Sunday night I was just tired and depressed I crawled in to bed early and as I'm half asleep my mom texts me, 'How is everything?', and I just can't keep lying to myself anymore. No amount of sexy skunkhaired doctor action is going to change the fact I'm too scared to open my door or go sit in the common room for an hour. I broke down.

Now I'm so happy to be going home this weekend. To see my cousin who's not just my best friend, she's my sister, my tovarich. To see one of my best friends to geek about dolls. To see cosplay people I barely know, but love to death. To see my mom who's everything and anything, who puts up with my crazy habits and braindead moves of spending money on a Euclase rather than food. To cuddle my baby Ghost kitty and let my mama kitty Kiki love me like I'm her very own kitten. To my messy, messy room that I don't want to clean because mess is me and I am a mess. Of grabbing more security blankets and doll clothes and cloth for sewing and buying art supplies like their comfort food. (Like comfort food for the soul...?)

I'm so glad I have them to go home too, so glad my mom will drive the eight hour round trip just to get me for the weekend. I'm grateful that I have Indira, to cuddle and snuggle and cry with, so grateful for friends online who love old school anime with cyborgs and androids and super surgeons as much as I do. I'm so very happy to have found World-without-you, to have had our little misunderstandings over the apparent/unapparent explicitness of a certian yaoi doujinshi I ordered, and for us to now be planning out an amazing colab to fill our fandom with all it's been lacking. So happy to have friends who will just call whenever to talk about random shit, and for Kat, a fellow doll owner and overall amazing person who makes the long hours of drawing class with my hurting back more bearable with her random text updates as her incoming dolls come home.

And yet I'm so happy I'm on my own. I haven't had a single migraine, no tense moments listening at my door as World War III threatens to break out at my house, no little brother being an asshole to me just because he can, and no more dreams of me screaming at my father all the things I never said and wished I had as he destroys what little of a relationship there was to shatter.


Here's to hoping this weekend can kick away this stormy mood.


 
 
Current Location: The Plaza Dorm, room 141
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Pandora Radio - Razed in Black Station
 
 
Carolyn <3
04 November 2008 @ 08:55 pm
I is just playing on a dragon site. Pay Carolyn no mind. <3 But if you would be so kind, please click on thems to help them grow!! ^w^

Adopt one today!

Adopt one today!

Adopt one today!

Adopt one today!
 
 
Current Mood: busy
 
 
Carolyn <3
04 November 2008 @ 08:18 pm


------------> Duplicate journal on DeviantART

Lawlz, Carolyn is watching the election on the Democratic bias CNN. Good thing I lean toward the blue~ So I appologize for yet another election journal XD

Like, I don’t want to start any arguments, but Palin scares me. Watched any debates with her? Staring. And smiling. ALL. THE. TIME. D: *cries*

…The only one I really like is Biden. :/ Does that make me weird? Oh well. I’m just kinda glad it’s gonna be over soon. I really don’t care who wins, AS LONG AS IT’S DONE. I’ve done so much in Government, arrg. I dun like politics.

I can’t vote yet…. *sob*

And I’m off to continue to watch how things turn out while eating popcorn~ :heart: Because I is very tired and not so happy that I was born a women. *mad face*

Hope you all have a nice next four years! ^w^ For Carolyn is very secure as far as college goes, so she says all you fanatic politician peoples can suck it. >8D
 

 
 
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: End Of All Hope by Nightwish
 
 
Carolyn <3
04 November 2008 @ 03:45 pm
Haha, [info]t_lyrical Had this meme up, so I asked to be apart of it.


reply to this post and I will pick six of your icons
make a post (including this info) and talk about the icons I chose
other people can then comment to you and make their own posts
this will create a never ending cycle of icon glee!








1.) Default - A cup of tea. I like tea. I love tea. I live on the stuff during the winter time. @_@ And all my favorite characters like tea. :heart:

2.) look_out_jesus - DAT SHARK IS GONNA EET JUU! D8> I found this picture on photobucket, and it made me lol sooo hard. I still giggle when I see it hiding in my icons~

3.) yuan_flail - Yuan. Flailing. Because he never would, being the calm and collected leader that he is. So when he does, it means things have gone terribly wrong... Like when Kratos decides he's going to chill on Derris-Karlan while it speeds off in to space. D: I happen to flail and make strange sounds quite often.

4.) no_icon - Now, I wonder who could have made this icon? XD [info]t_lyrical made a whole bunch of Temeraire icons, and I had to use one or three. Onward, to Australia!

5.) kaze_flashback - Chibi Kaze from a great (but totally for three-year olds) anime called Final Fantasy: Unlimited. Kaze has lost most of his memory, but like any other amnesiac he's prone to random flashbacks. Especially when someone grabs his hand. :3 So cuuuute~

6.) durand_jail_cell - Oh god. Too many in-jokes. But I'll try to explain my self. You see, this is Durand, a sexy Frenchie from a simply amazing historical anime series call Le Chevalier D'Eon. There’s a spot in one episode that’s epic if you happen to be wearing slash goggles. This is known as the jail cell scene. Poor Durand, I just had to have an icon of him all beat up. <3


8D And I think that wraps things up!
 
 
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Lovers in Japan by Coldplay
 
 
Carolyn <3
06 August 2008 @ 07:18 pm
Ho'kay, so here's the deal:



MY DRIVERS ED TEACHER NEEDS TO DIE.



NAO, PLEASE.


...Jerk said I need to make up missed class time too. But thats not what we where told back in June. So I have to scramble and beg more time out of fellow students now with only a week and two days left.

Tell me I just didn't waste my whole summer.


*insert curse words of your choice, repeated offten and in to particular order*



Grah. And meh daddys a jerk. As usual.




.....




D: I ordered some badass looking Legend of Drizzt comic books like, a week and a half ago, and I want them to come all ready! Because even though they is better than some, they is still PAINFULLY American, as I skimmed through the Halflings Gem at the store. All the men are manly. All the girls dress like whores. 

Drow women, I can understand. They like to flaunt it that boys can't touch with out permission. But really, Cattie-Brie would never dress like that. The Lady of Silverymoon looks like something you'd see in playboy. Neither of thier boobs are that freakin' big.


...Wolfgar's hat makes me laugh. It's pretty stupid. He looks like a viking 'tard. Regis was adorable though, I have to say. *huggles* He makes up for the viking helmet.




I is haveing my 17th birthday party next friday!! 8D I is soooo excited! My real birthday is on the 25, but I'll be at my relatives. So we have my spaz-tastic tie-dyeing party early, compleat with Durand on a cake. Sexy french man ON A CAKE kiddies. 

Then it's off to my uncle's till the 25, a week devoid of interent but full of untintrupted video games.



IT'S LIKE GOD IN A CAN.





Yes. Now I play ping pong with Jesus. Have a nice day.

 
 
Current Location: Eating dinner <3
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: I Kissed A Girl
 
 
Carolyn <3
25 July 2008 @ 06:50 pm
LiveJournal Username
Age
Favorite ice cream
Favorite season
Thinks you're ass is tight:ravengreenleaf
Wants to lick hot chocolate off you're body:swordxdancer
Wonders how good you are in bed:chevalierfidele
Wishes you would screw him/her on the spot:halcyonjazz
Is romatically in love with you:chevalierfidele
Wishes you were gay so he/she could love you better:ravengreenleaf
Hopes you'll take him/her to great heights (wink wink nudge nudge):tein_temeraire
Day dreams about having sex with you 24/7:tein_temeraire
This Fun Quiz created by Molly at BlogQuiz.Net
Awesome car videos at Car-Videos.Biz



I founds this in a friends journal. And it makes me laugh because most of my 'friends' are character roleplay accounts.


My brain just fryed.



And Emeric is officaly a full Flamme-de-Gloire vs as cross between that and a Kazilik. BECAUSE IT LOOKS SO BAD-ASS.

LAWLZ. 8D
 
 
Current Location: Cleao-kuns House
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: To The Ocean by Blue October
 
 
Carolyn <3
24 July 2008 @ 03:53 pm

Truely, it's even amazing that this POS comp is letting me type this. I thought I was going to have to wait untill Friday to use meh mommie's work laptop.

In more interesting news, I have lots of pretty pictures to go along with my recent Temeraire fling. BUT THE COMPUTER CRASHES WHEN I TURN THE SCANER ON. 

So it's back to the ole crappy camera and photo upload route. Just what I allways wanted. NOT.


...I even wrote <ljuser=t_lyrical>'s Tharkay/Laurence fic. But I have no means of typeing it up before the blue screen of doom comes and slaughters my computer again. D: All this and driver's ed makes for a very stressed and sad Carolyn.



And so, for the hell of it, lets have a little fun with this meme thing I founds going around:

One True Pairing Ship:
Canon Ship:
"If this happens I'll stab my eyes out with a spork" Ship:
"You are one sick bastard" Ship:
"I dabble a little" Ship:
"It's like a car crash" Ship:
"Tickles my fancy but not sold just yet" Ship:
"Makes no canon sense but why the Hell not" Ship:
"Everyone else loves it but I just don't feel it" Ship:

 
 
Current Location: New York. As in the State.
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Stripped by Depeche Mode
 
 
Carolyn <3
15 July 2008 @ 08:37 pm
Driver's Ed suuuuuuuuuuuuucks. Bad. It sucks major ass. 

Chambo is an idiot that can't teach gym let alone people how to drive, and HE GRABS THE WHEEL WHILE I'M DRIVING.


GRAH. D8< 

NOT COOL, MAN. NOT COOL.


I'm allready stressed as it is, I don't need him messing me up. Have I mentioned I've now been behind the wheel a grand total of five time in my life? All the other kids may have six months of experience, but I just started. Where has the 'Education' in Driver's Ed gone?


ARG. I IS NOT A HAPPY LITTLE CLAM NO MORE.







On a slightly lighter note, meh mommie gots me Victory of Eagles by Naomi Novik as an early birthday present. Then I read it in one day.


THEN LEIK OMG NAOMI NOVIK JOINED DEVIANT ART AND FAVED MY THREE YEAR OLD CRAPPY TEMERAIRE DRAWINGS.

8D

I danced around the room with my cat. She did not aproved in being cuddled and flung about. The parental units where very proud, 'specialy meh Daddy.

Now I just have to glaze that Grand Chevalier I made out of clay~ <3
 
 
Current Location: Living Room
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Hinotori by System 7
 
 
Carolyn <3
19 November 2007 @ 08:31 pm

Heyo everyone!! I'm posting some terms from le most AMAZING show Le Chevalier D'eon for others to reference~ ANY info here was gathered from watching it in Japanese, watching it in English, and reading the handy dandy little booklets that came with the DVD.

If there's a term I left out, poke me and I'll add it! 


Terms from ‘Le Chevalier D’eon’

 

 

Poet: A poet is a magical master of words. The use lines from the Book of Psalms held in the Holy Bible to create new Psalms and do numerous things with their powers. (See ‘Psalms’ below)

 

An average poet can do much of the following (An ‘+’ will point out the ones only a veeeeeeery powerful poet is capable of):

 

*Create and control “Gargoyles” (See ‘Gargoyles’ below)

*Reverse the Gargoyle process – Thus saving the unlucky victim +

*Heal wounds – Even to the point of re-growing lost body parts

*Alter/destroy objects and structures

*Kill people at a distance

*Do battle with other poets

*Cheat death – Through a gamble with someone else’s life +

*Reach out to someone’s soul +

*Appear as an apparition +

 

Psalms: The Book of Psalms can be found in any Holy Bible, and it is from this collection of 150 poems that the poets draw their power. The Psalms used in the series are not actually certain poems, but are a collection of certain lines from different Psalms.

 

i.e., in The Psalm of Vengeance the line “Put them in fear, O Lord, so that the nations may know themselves to be but men” is found in the Bible under Psalm 9, and another line “For the enemy hath persecuted my soul, he hath made me dwell in darkness, like those long dead” is found in Psalm 143.

 

The re-combined verses of the Psalms are where the Poets draw their power.

 

Gargoyle: A Gargoyle is a twisted servant of the Poet who created it. They are characterized by increased strength and agility, grey skin, gold mercury clouded eyes, and the symbol ‘H.’.O’ somewhere on their bodies. (See ‘H.’.O’ below.) Gargoyles are nothing more than mindless monsters subject to the poets will, and the only ways to kill one are too either break the seal reading H.’.O or to mortally wound and kill it (which is very hard to do). Said mercury also has a habit of leaking out of the gargoyle.

 

A Gargoyle can not be returned to it’s pre-gargoyle state by simple breaking the H.’.O seal, it will die because most of it’s body fluids have been converted to mercury. BUT a Poet can use the power of the Psalms to reverse the gargoyle process and re-convert the mercury.

 

The victims of Poets don’t have to be human even they usually are. Dogs and rats have been regularly used by Lorenza (See ‘Lorenza’ in the Character Post), and it’s possible that other animals could be used.

 

H.’.O: or “Homme : Oparte” is the symbol of the Poets. ”Homme” means “Man” in French, and “Oparte” means “To Wish” in Latin, so H.’.O is Man’s Wish or Desire. The words of two languages become one and take on a new meaning in the word “Metamorphose” or “Transform”. When this symbol is engraved on a person or animal, they become a gargoyle.

 

NQM: Pronounced “Naqam” it is a Hebrew word that means “To take vengeance”, but it also means to wish for the return to harmony after chaos. It is the symbol of Le Secret du Roi, and it shows a persons connection to the secret organization, usually displayed on a rosary, but it has also been seen on a pocket watch, shotgun, and sword.

 

Knight: A Knight was originally a mounted soldier, and was a rank given to nobles who went through certain training and preformed feats of valor. But when times became more peaceful, being a knight was more of a title than anything. The military title of someone that has been declared as a knight is “dragoon” or an armed soldier trained to fight on foot but transport themselves on horseback. 

Character post coming soon~!!! <3 <3 <3

 
 
Current Mood: dorky
 
 
Carolyn <3
06 October 2007 @ 05:22 pm

----Well, here it is! Carolyn's appy thingie for Temeraire! I'm going to fail horribly, but oh well....----



Temeraire was always curious about new ideas and how things worked. When he first hatched, Laurence had to explain in its entirety how the ship’s rigging was put together and what it did. That was back when Temeraire had no distinguishing frill or tendrils and was still small enough to fit in a cabin’s hammock, while the oceans rocking would put him to sleep.

 

Temeraire was ecstatic to learn about the world beyond blue waves and ship life. He soaked up knowledge like a sponge, with a perfect memory for the words in the books he had Laurence read aloud again and again. There where books on mining the gems he treasured, books on history and literature, books about plants, about animals, and math, and cultures that thrived far away… there was just too many to count! His favorite books where about dragons and poetry. How many times had Temeraire insisted that Laurence read from the collection of Oriental stories that the nice Sir Edward Howe had givein them? In China dragons wrote beautiful poetry that he had tried to convey to Laurence, but much of the meaning was lost in the translation. Temeraire had even tried to compose some himself, even though he didn’t think they where all that great..

 

Oh, China had been great fun, though Yongxing had tried to separate him and Laurence at first. Something about how only the royal family could have Celestials. The same declaration Temeraire had made to those mean Navy officers still stood: Should any one try to take Laurence away, they would be promptly squashed. Temeraire didn’t care whether or not his Captain found the solution a bit drastic.

 

But the rest of China was nice. The people and dragons both had been extremely friendly. Especially Mei.

 

Temeraire didn’t really understand at first back in England why the Aviators where soooo eager to go to the city when they had leave. Apparently, there where stores to buy stuff and musical concerts to go to, and something called a ‘whore’ or a ‘bar wench’ to spend time with. Aside from the music, it didn’t sound all that exciting.

 

Mei had answered that question.

 

The streets in the cities in China where big enough for open markets and dragons, as Temeraire nearly spun his head off his neck trying to look every which way at once. His favorite thing by far was the fact that people backed away from his path in respect, not fear. Back in England, most would have run and hid if a full blown heavy weight dragon came waltzing through London. Temeraire thought this fear was silly, and said so, because he’s wasn’t going to eat them and he would be very, very careful not to step on them either. (Laurence told him not to worry about it, and doubted that the Celestial would have fit in the narrow alleys anyway.)

 

Temeraire was depressed more easily as of late. Seeing all of the wonderful things dragons did in China made him relies just how much his friends where missing out on in Europe. He argued that they where treated more like property than individuals, dragons had no rights, didn’t get pay or anything, and worse yet, had to eat things raw. Temeraire had gained a preference for cooked meat, even vegetables, on the voyage east. He had a tendency of dwelling on such matters and sulking for hours on end, thinking up ways to convince others to help him change how things where done.

 

But seeing as he was now stuck in a self made clearing next to a strange city listening to some strange ticking sound, he doubted any of that would happen soon…

 
 
Current Location: Chibi's House
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Wind chimes and teh TV
 
 
Carolyn <3
01 October 2007 @ 08:57 pm

Testing, un, deux, trois! FRENCH BABY!! XD I'm just makeing sure some of teh code works~! 

<lj user=assorted_teas> 


Huh. CHIBI!!! How does it work again...?

 

Oh, wait, I fixxy.... IGNORE THIS!!

 
 
Carolyn <3
Heyo! wellcome to Carolyn's new account! Now that I'm all hyped up on some yummy chai tea and loads of Le Chevalier D'eon it's time to DANCE!!!

*Plays the LCD theme, Born*

Dance dance dance DANCE DAAAAAAAAANCE dance daaaance dance dance dance-

I WANNA WRITE A FANFIC!!!! *Runs off*


Sea yu latta, 

Carolyn-chan
 
 
Current Location: Tovarich's House
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Bleed It Out - Linkin Park, Minutes to Midnight
 
 
 
 

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